Baking Dreams

 

Your computer commits suicide.

That was a month ago.

 

I could only start up with a grey coloured screen. Unable to get into my operating system, I had no computer for personal use outside of work. I could read quick emails during lunchbreak at the office but never had time to properly reply. Screw the use of facebook and blogging outside work hours (Not that I was supposed to do those during work anyway!). The personal emails kept piling.

 

The 4 year old macbook went kaput with no warning. The speed didn't slow down, the startup time was as fast, and everything ran smoothly until the day it died. I had been reluctant to fix it as it costs a bomb - will cost SGD 120 just to run a diagnostic test to see what's wrong, and replacement of a battery about SGD 250, and the motherboard can go up to SGD 700!

 

Yet at the same time, I was unwilling to buy a new computer as I was so attached to the old one.

 

Technology. Can't live with it, can't live without it.

 

There's a huge loss of pictures, old documents, and data. It was all very upsetting and I did not cope well with it at first. Yet, during this time, strangely, I drew closer to God and took comfort in Him; He reminded me that we cannot take the possessions of this world with us when we die. Perhaps it's similar to Buddhist teachings - everything's an illusion and all soon will pass.

 

Another unexpected outcome of losing the computer was that I made more trips to the gym. I joined it in August and so far I enjoy the classes the most. I've tried yoga, kickboxing, belly dancing, cardio latino, hip hop, aerobics of all sorts, pilates and stretching exercises. So far, I have failed to lose any weight. But I do notice my body getting more toned and firm, and I am a little less jiggly compared to a few months ago (Things that an office job does to you!). And it keeps my metabolic rate at an all-time sky-high. It's so hard to be as active as i was during University, now that I've got a 9-5 desk job. Trying to keep it up!