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The last 15 days were a daze. Spiritual crisis and loggerheads with God. Repeated emo + heated arguments with two people close to me, out of which one described me as 'dropping nukes'. 20 ++ Christmas cards jammed up the office printer, and each Season's Greeting card greeted me with the typical idiotic blinking red light. A fever + flu + cough epidemic swept across the cubicles at work before hitting my table. My grandma's now in JB and staying with the mom - who for some reason is being difficult by ignoring my messages and attempts to arrange visits to grandma. An outing with four ex-classmates cancelled for the second? third? time, and it's been delayed more than a month already.

Life ain't rosy for those around me either; the bff's mother drives her up the wall almost every damn day, the hubby went deaf in one ear, and my aunty underwent an eye operation to fix some black spots in her visual field.

And today, I had my period. The painful, agonizing, bleed-till-you-black-out sort. FML.

To numb the emotional roller coaster, today, after a long, long, day at work, I gave up on the gym and took the MRT to the Esplanade instead. And headed straight for the Haagen-daaz ice cream store.

Heavenly was the smooth indulgence of bitter-sweet Green Tea haagen-daaz ice cold goodness in a waffle cone. Totally worth every cent of the SGD $6.70 paid upfront.

At the Esplanade, known for free music performances in the evenings, there was a cute young singer today ready to bare his soul to the awaiting audience. With the ice cream in hand I lazed on a triangle-shaped seat against the wall and the non-musical world was no more.

Almost prophetically, the suave young man belted out in a sweet mid-falsetto, Let it Be, by the Beatles...

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

It was almost as if God was reminding me, "Worry not about your troubles, for I am in control of your circumstances. Whatever unsettles your mind, give it up to me, and taken care of those matters will be..."

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be...

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be